What Has Happened

you said it's harder to leave, 
I said let's talk tomorrow
we're not right
apology or willingness can't correct
when everybody is on your side
I just said "sorry everyone" to myself


came some 150 bucks
she said "I need 50" and she took
another story that she told
she refused to help or calm no more
and to her, he didn't settle pretty well
I just think it's 21 years already


today she told me I was like her
and every guy is just the same
forget is hard, remember is harder
we deny to hurt but we couldn't hurt ourselves,too...
you make a joke, and I just laugh


I smoke the cigars in my eyes
I'm doing 60 on the road, but convincing 190
you know it's hard to explain
looks like you're replaying my previous record
10 plans written, 10 plans escaped
mark down on a map and I just ponder
"For everything happened for a reason"
I keep repeating somehow


last night he said what he thought
and to me he just can't be so true
but I don't know what lust is this
at least one reason that makes me calm and warm
they don't know what I'm through
but dear at least you don't hover
space is my need and we never mind
our heads are not right sometimes
those are what we sought
evoke the feelings that we felt
we play strokes's songs and lean on
everyday we repeat one same ending

Beautiful Mind You Readers :)

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I couldn't forget, when remember is less

My ex spurred my innocent adolescent hormones

Adrenaline triggered some actions

Something fathomable, we can understand

Wolfed down in different kind of hunger, 

for Paris I have to come

We've settled in this far

How we did that? Doesn't matter coz we did it

I was so lazy and I was just too tired

to have to think about what we might get

So can't we just stand up?

We've laid for too long, not quite a sin

I fell in the middle

but they said I didn't

people see but people don't know

If I were just like them, won't you tell me I've pissed you off

We are all pissed, and we pissed them all

But I am one of a kind, that you will not know

Behind a curtain, there are still stories

Just like when bread turned into crumbs

I feel just the same

They don't know what is really going on

Somehow I keep it on the low

Yeah, this is the journey

We are all mates

We are all friends

Though sometimes some pretend

We know what we know, we keep what they don't know

Winner sometimes win in a losing, doesn't matter, mate

Sooner or later, we gotta have some clues

Rock & Gold

#Gold is what most of people craze for, while rock is everywhere and way more worthless than gold.

Yeahhh, but sometimes rock&gold have the same price. This isn't a trololololll, this is LIFE.

I'm lacking of idea today so I'm gonna just write something lame. In number sequences, ok k k k k,,,

1. "Not everything we want in life, we can get" - This is so true,mate. Do not perceive you have everything cause you actually don't. But this isn't a reason for us to stop dreaming. Dreaming is the best thing and constructive(if it's a good dream). Live your life to the max you can, this is no one-man-show, this is everyone show. Achieve everything you want, all of your dreams, try out the best you can do cause You Only Live Once (said The Strokes). But be careful, make it less mistake(s). Sometimes mistakes are good,correctable. But sometimes they aren't and even worst. And if you think you are young while reading my post,,,,, don't waste another day mate! To be idle, will only diminish the young strength in you! Find something you really want in your life, there's still time! Not everything you can get, but you can get some things that worth it! Go work it out now :))))
2. "Nothing lasts forever" - Ememem, I am not so good in fathoming this. Most brokenhearted favorite line. But actually, to me it's not!! There's a hidden meaning in this line. Hehehehehe. Because I don't want him as a boyfriend, I don't want him as my special someone, I don't want him as my close friend also and I just want him to stay just the way who he is to me right now, which is nothing. Our relationship is nothing. Not official so it's nothing. And I treat it like a normal one, not so keen but... Nevermind, I would just like to entitle him 'Mr Nothing'. And hoping he'll last forever.
3. "A piece of half-written paper, blank space left, and a pen full of ink" - This is quite,hmmm... Just let me clarify... You have a paper, which is half-written by you before... Then there's blank space left unwritten. And you were given a pen, full of ink. You need to fill in the blank with writing the next thing.. But you just stopped, staring blankly down the paper, not writing anything on it. Why? You don't know if there's still things to write down, aren't you? Remember mate, don't give up. There's still time and hope, God will guide us. Keep on dreaming and start to achieve it..:))
4. "Sky and memories" - The relation between sky and memories is, sky is always there. hehehe. Memories happened under the sky. Jyeahh. When I look up the sky, I'll remember those good old days! Nothing much baby.. :)
5. "Not every smile is a smile" - Can you judge how many pains people have been suffering from their smile? Don't think every smile is a smile, sometimes it is just a mask. Do you ever think how much does it really hurt? 
6. "For everything happened for a reason, I have to be Redha" - Yeahh, this is how it should be. A way to go friend! :))

Ememem, this post is boring because I really don't know what to point to make it interesting. Do not prejudice badly kkk, ever. It's just, thing doesn't flow very well today. Everyone will have their day, just that, maybe today's not mine. Nevermind, I will add up some efforts to make it better! Ciao,mate!!

Unshaped Photographs

Slippery shoes, they're hard to be mine...

When a pair of balls.. double the ballet silhouette...

While sugar sugar, you're running too far...

How can I get so fly without wings...

Yet I am not light, ironically vague..

As the edge of arrow touches like a velvet...

How ice is an air...

And I look like a coward..

Ghost everywhere, ghost myself...

These lines are worst.. but aren't they relatives?

Now I am watching the snails.. the finishing line seems unseen..

Keep drawing on the soil.. 

While I looked down and fell..

Think of old folks, how spoon is heavy..

Still remember how I was taught in school, this earth is round..

Somehow, the teachers are correct today..

Unfathomable Red, where are those questions?
I wrote 'zero' in the answer sheet..
This time it makes sense..
Cause simple thought goes profound..

Unreal is real..

Words are twisted, so do the imaginations..

But they are relatives, yes they are..

Looked so me..

I know I will be gone, and this will be a legend.. 

To those who concerns.. And imaginary-literate.

-exa-

When Jules met Juliet

Yeahhh, reflect upon the title, you might think I am gonna write love story.
No, I didn't mean that at all. There's some other thing, a different view, a paradigm of its unintended title-reading reflection.

Jules is a guy, Juliet is a woman. God, everyone knows. I am pointing lame fact. You know this meeting (between Jules and Juliet) grows love, ain't? Yes, that's what happens in our society today. Love is very general. Love, here, my intended meaning, is a feeling of fond and sympathy to.....anything possible. Give lust an excuse, it's very common to love anything or anyone without amour, passionate rush. Neither orgasm.

I found somehow, it's kinda implication of something, I mean not in explicit manner. The thing I would like to heighten here is...... a person can change once they've found someone who caused her/him to think twice! Yeah , well that's what has lead me to write this entry though.

People somehow would not know when they've met someone, regardless of how close or important that someone is in his/her life, they can be influenced, sometimes.

As an example, when you keep talking with somebody even in just a few seconds, you might as well talk the way they talk. I mean languages, slang, manner or style. Example no. 2, don't you know, in a very spontaneous, unpretentious conversation of a very common trivial stuff, some quotes might get you hooked. And may cause you to re-consider your opinion or principal. "As the world changes, the people'll change too". Just when a fated coincidence or non-coincidence meeting between two or more individuals, will set a new 'brain wiring'. You might as well fell for the same interest. Commonly photography, musics, sports etc. Exchanging thought, opinion, interest and so on.

Even a psychiatric patient, who speaks in a way, which is a lot of hogwash, they sometimes can be right! Savor the change for goodness mate. Don't judge who, but judge the truth. There's no way in telling you how it's a God guidance sent to us in such a unique way. Don't think it's too good to be true. Do the right thing. Maybe some of your acquaintances, are just your 'teacher'. Make yourself learned, and stay corrected then it'll produce a person who is nobody of note, a free-thinker, mature, and insusceptible to tough going. Well, just wanna say, sometimes, these types of occurrences is a phase we have to undergo. Meeting, passing by, leaving, are part of life. Get ready.

Readers, when we see luxurious meals, they look tasty. And the cook may win the sniff test, but once we tasted it, perhaps, something different will occur. Your earlier thought might change. The taste isn't as nice as its look, and its smell, maybe? The point is, what you know, what you see, what you do, they can't just be simply concluded. I know we can't put ourselves in everyone's shoes (not everything we want, we can get right?), but do not simply make a conclusion. Learn 'why' first. Then if you have the chance to be in it, feel.

I am sorry. This is not an assertion to show I am a good, optimistic, writer/advisor. Just wanna share what I think. Bye for now mates, loves, Jules <3 -exa

Life Quotes

"Don't conclude life while you're pursuing it"


"Single turn, can change the wind. Single touch, may change the feeling."


"Sometimes we just wish that we're back in times where we'd started all this. Seems like beginning is easier than ending. Alas, there's no turning point"


"People tends to do something which they already know it's a mistake in the first place."


"I have not learned until I made mistakes then I stay corrected"


"What we want sometimes is not what we need"


"Decision will somehow make you guilty. Trust me"


"Humans are fickle. Even if you spent your whole lifetime to learn about yourself, you'll never understand fully"


"Men are as brittle as a chalk. Don't treat them very hard, else you'll lose them quick"


"If and only if I can turn back times and make my way out of yours."


"When hate surrounds, love is fading"


"Well I know those hate and love are on a same circle, but you drew a thicker hate line on it."


"Regret is nothing when all you do is sitting and the aftermath is spitting"


"Life was non-repeatable play. Life is non-repeatable play. Life will be non-repeatable play."


"When I've made someone my nothing, that means I don't wanna lose him."


"Honoring love above what is not yours."


"I am fake, you're not awake"


"Sometimes you really love someone that you have to let go cause you don't think you can be together, and sometimes you're hoping to be with someone else that you ended up married to a different person! haha. Life is so mysterious. Only God knows, mate."


"You claimed me to be someone different? It's like a dope, trashier version of me. Well, i think you just made your respect poll dropped out. They're all have brains to judge, sweet baby."


"The time you'll bow below your egoism will be the time where I have gone far away"


"I've sat too long that I left crack on the chair . When the mark is obvious , I know you'll think of me ."


"Sugary mouth is a pretend"


"Can u judge my pain in my smile ?"


"For a thousand years , I will still be me ."


"The person you really loved , might just your 'teacher' ."


"Holding hands like you can break a glass when u grasped it too hard . :DD"


"Unnoticeable seconds learnt by lovers"


"Taste the words , sweet and sharp ."


"I won't let myself die in your beautiful mind sweet darling ."


"When people leaves , people realizes ."


"You think you won't cause you don't think that you will ."


"They were just lust cause true-self is profound ."


"You can't see what isn't there."


"Don't warn , I'm warm ."


"The pain will teach you how to become indifferent , mate ."

"I see the hate , only then I'll see love ."


"You can find a lot of pretty girls , but you can't find one like me ."


"I only love after you hate me ."


"A world of luxury given doesn't guarantee my happiness till the end of time. A world of love given doesn't guarantee a love-reply from me."


"Words sometimes, make us calm."


"And when you think you're dead,and there's no solution to deal with your pain, that is suffering."

"If I can make a wish, I just want to sorry and thank you everyone."

"Astray doesn't mean you're a bad person, you're just acclaiming your will without making a long term observation."

"If I can do everything my eyes closed, I swear I will cause every time I open my eyes, you aren't there, but every time I close my eyes, you are everywhere."

"Don't 'lock' what is not yours. Cause you'll be surprised you're actually 'loosening' it."

"You know, life is funny. Most of the people know how they will end up, but still, they make a starting to honor what they want."

"People hate because of love. People love because of hate."

"If I play hard-to-get, they'll say I am behaving like a prom queen. If I play cheap, they'll say I am a show girl. So what should I do now?"

"What I am in right now values double. Beyond all fates and destiny, to God almighty I shall turn."

"No matter how wealthy or how high one's status is , we are not meant to differentiate each other . A little depth on a very piece of land on this earth is all that we need when we die . Don't perceive that you should be treated like highly honored ."